What does he have that I don't have?

But now that I think of it, there's no good answer to that question. If the answer is "nothing", then the problem can only be that fate or whatever is out to get me. And if there is something (or things), then even if it can be changed, which maybe it can't, it would be too little, too late.

I've blown almost every chance I had; why should I expect any more?